So, I had been all gung ho on blogging here every day.
And then I started the couch to 5k program, and promptly injured both knees on the second week. Now, after a lot of physio and a lot of exercises, we’ve figured out that it’s not a structural problem with my knees (thank goodness, especially since both of them make rather horrid crunching sounds when moving) but actually problems with my hips and muscles basically not doing what they’re supposed to. It’s improving, but I still can’t walk more than about 200m without being in pain and limping.
The basic gist of this is: I’ve been in a lot of pain from it, and I haven’t been sleeping well because of the pain, and because I haven’t been able to get enough exercise.
And, as a result, I’ve been a grumpyguts. I’ve also been dealing with some side effects of coming off medication, which has made that even worse.
Naturally (I suppose), I haven’t really been accomplishing much of anything. I’ve been writing, because turning up to the page is what I do, no matter what, but everything else has kind of been piling up. I need to kick my own arse into gear and get back into the routine of it all, dammit. Maybe starting to blog here again properly will help a little.
The ironic thing is that I’m pretty much used to pain. Fibro pain is always, always there, no matter what, and has always been there since I was about thirteen. But it’s like background static, except when it flares badly. I feel like a wuss for how badly this knee/hip issue has derailed me. But I am working on strength, working with my physio, and I will get back there. Walking first, then running very slowly.
And for the record, a couple of wise people have pointed out to me the huge injury rate that couch to 5k produces – I think it’s an awesome thing for some people, especially if you’re already somewhat used to exercise and have no muscular or joint programs, but for true couch potatoes (of which I categorically was not one when I began, being used to walking 3-4km daily), a much slower program is probably a much wiser choice.